You ever walk around calm as ever but your screaming on the inside ... it drives you crazy because your screaming for help but the only person that can hear you is you . You walk around with a perception painted of you but the perception you paint of yourself is different , on the inside you burry the pain , and carry the burden .. on the outside your smiling or lashing out with things that make you feel better in the moment but it’s just a temporary fix for a permanent problem . Sometimes you hate being this person .. a person that has a strong exterior but is so fragile on the inside .. one thing can tip you over but you keep your cool , you keep your head because on the outside you can take it , and fuck anyone who thinks you can’t because you’ve shown them you can ... your having a good day and than something happens and it subconsciously triggers you . Next thing you know your screaming again ... waiting for someone to hear you ... but no one can . Than you find yourself second guessing .. second guessing yourself , what your good at .. what you believe in .. what you can achieve ... and at the same time your battling yourself with yourself .. how could you be these two different people at one time .. so high yet so low ... so happy yet so sad ... so full of light yet so dim your damn near dark ... your fighting to find your way out .. see your way through .. you attach yourself to the strong part of you , and you build on to that person ... connect more to that person .. and than next thing you know you really become that person ... or you want to .